My Running is About to Become a Figure of Speech

Running hurts too much. I’ve got this weird space in my life where I love to run and being in motion makes me feel centered and sane. Unfortunately running is doing permanent damage to my joints. I feel great when I run. Who doesn’t? It’s an incredible feeling when both feet are off the ground. Unfortunately by the end of a run I feel throbbing in my feet and then an hour later in my hips. The next morning my toes feel like they’re on fire. This is the arthritis …

I Told My Doctor I’d Get an Abortion

I have RA. That’s Rheumatoid Arthritis. Had I become symptomatic twenty years ago I’d be disabled by now and unable to type. Because of science and research (and insurance) I’m in really good shape. I take a handful of pills each day and an injection each month. Once in a while you’ll hear me moan about the medicine, but for the most part I love the medicine, hate the disease, love the medicine. At my last visit with the rheumatologist we decided to add another pill to the mix. Like …

Training with Rheumatoid Arthritis

I used to love running. Running has been my link to sanity in every difficult moment of my life. I ran as a child, as a teen and as an adult. I ran short and long distances and I’ve always loved running in the hills. I love running downhill and taking flight almost as much as I love running up hill and feeling fire in my lungs. When I can’t shut my brain off I go for a run and it fixes everything. It’s been my meditation, my therapy and …

My Toes Can Go Eff Themselves

My toes hurt every morning. They don’t hurt a little bit, they hurt like spikes have been driven into them. They’re just toes, one might say. Every morning when I lay in bed and open my eyes I feel fine. I swing sideways on the bed and stand up. Still fine. I take one step forward and now my toes are involved, it’s like childbirth. There’s a pain that starts in the joints and radiates up my spine ending in that horrible place between your shoulder blades. This is coupled …

Fear and Rheumatoid Arthritis

I have a friend with Rheumatoid Arthritis. We were diagnosed the same month. She’s afraid to take drugs. I’m afraid of not having them. If you’re newly diagnosed with RA please look into the disease modifying drugs. Most of the day I don’t hurt. It’s unlikely that I’ll need a joint replaced, and the fatigue is almost completely gone. I was terrified and I know you are too. It’s okay to be afraid and to keep moving forward. Don’t miss your chance to be well.